Lovely

I can't believe this keeps happening to me.  I look myself in the mirror.  Turn right.  Turn left.  Peek out the corner of my eye and try again, side-to-side.  Suck it in.  Squint.  Hmmmm.  When did i become the person this sort of ______( fill in the blank) happens too?  Sigh.  I used to be sooo....

...soooo, NOT, gonna finish that thought.  Let me back up.

I was standing there having a conversation with the Dean of Students from my son's school.  When i saw her approaching from the corner of my eye.  I naturally moved back to create some space for her to walk between us when it  happened.

"Whatcha got in there?", she asks and pats my hard, firm, taut abs.  (wouldn't be blogging this if that was the description of my mid-section.)  Okay.  How about - somewhat firm post two children with an occasional sit-up slightly squishy, stomach.

Drat!  As if that realization wasn't bad enough... Nope.

On this day, a worst nightmare was confirmed.  My mid-section formally known as abs, turned womb (twice), i thought was back to a stomach but apparently a more accurate and appropriate description would be, belly.  Suh-weet! 

"Food," i glibly reply. Hm.

Now, mind you, it's not all 'insane in the membrane'.  Someone complimented me on my physique the other day... just now wish, i hadn't rolled my eyes while quickly scrolling through that ever present mental checklist containing my many (real or imagined) areas of need. 

Agreement # 2: Don't take anything personally

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Recently, i had the privilege of facilitating a workshop for a group of remarkable young ladies affiliated with CentroNiá, a wonderful resource to the Columbia Heights community. 

After, we concluded i took a few shoots.  Here's what i captured....

The topic was beauty....

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There are no coincidences in the world in which i live.  I've come to understand that either everything matters or nothing matters.  Therefore, the irony of meeting my own image hasn't passed me by unnoticed and as a result I am left to remember and practice:

"Everything we do is based on agreements we have made - agreements with ourselves, with other people, with God, with life. But the most important agreements are the ones we make with ourselves. In these agreements we tell ourselves who we are, how to behave, what is possible, what is impossible. One single agreement is not such a problem, but we have many agreements that come from fear, deplete our energy, and diminish our self-worth"
                                      The Four Agreements.  

 As for me, as i write this blog, right now, i feel - well, lovely.  And hope that you do to...

Agreement # 2: Don't take anything personally 

Until next time...
B.